FEB 29: LEAP DAY!

I was gonna blog about my debut for this entry, but I realized that the pictures are not complete yet. Some are still with the photographers.
Sooooo, I guess I'll be blogging about my debut on the weekends, at my other blog site.

Anyway, it's leap day today. To tell you the truth, being depressed last 11/11/11 (because nothing really special happened), made me expect more for this day.

Leap day happens only once in four years, and one thing to do today is to make it extra special. For sure, after four years, one gets to look back and feel what happens today.

Today, I planned to let one of  my wish lanterns fly. But unfortunately, I was not able to do it.

To make things shorter, I didn't do anything that will make this day special.

I was depressed and disappointed, cause once again, I was not able to make a unique and important day that has to be memorable, an unforgettable one.

Later on, I realized that I should just let it pass.
Just like what I did last 11/11/11.
I just thought of everything I was going to wish in my wish lanterns.

I have a number of wishes, and just last night, one of them came true.
I guess having one of my wishes come true is something I have to be thankful about.
It was supposed to be something I could remember in the next four years.
It was a good memory.
A memory that brought me the "abot hanggang tenga na ngiti"

Another thing that I did last night was writing my predictions.
It was just short, and I think I want it to share to everyone who is reading my blog.

So, here are my predictions:

In four years...

1. I'll be on my second year in Medicine.
(I can't predict what school I'll be going to, but I know to myself, I'm going to pursue this degree.)

2. The people below, will still be the people who I love the most.

(Photos from my debut last February 25 2012)

And these are the things I did today.
It was a very mixed emotions but I am happy I get to smile even before this day ends.

PS. 

On March 2 (Friday) is Kuya Donn's 10th Death Anniversary!
I miss you so much, Kuya! I just really wish you were here. :(

I can't believe you've been away for 10 years.

It's kind of unfair thinking that I was able to spend only 9 years with you, and that I've been longing for you for 10 years already. :((

I MISS YOU, AND YOU ALWAYS HAVE A SPOT IN MY HEART.

I love you. :*

How do you kill a feeling?

A friend of mine tweeted last night the question, "How do you kill a feeling?"...and it actually made me wonder if it is even possible to kill your feelings.
 I was studying for my Pharmaco quiz last night when I got hurt by someone's words. I really couldn't focus reviewing, cause all I could think about were his words. I wanted to focus on Pharmaco. I didn't want to feel what I was feeling. If there was a way to not feel the pain that his words have caused me, I'll do everything to not feel that pain. I don't want that feeling. It was like I was slowly getting killed. At that moment, I just want to be numb.

Today, I passed by the church. I really wanted to take the pain away from my heart. I even asked for His guidance. I wanted everything to be okay. That was what was on my mind.

I knew to myself I am ready to forgive that person. I knew I wanted to be happy again. But I guess, something was stopping me. The pain that I felt was stopping me to bring everything back to normal.  I continue pushing him away.

People could think that what he said to me about giving up was just shallow for me to get mad at him like this. But I can't take one thing away from my mind: What he did hurt me cause he can't deny the fact that once in his life, he felt giving up on me.

That person is too important to me. I can't afford to lose that person. I even told myself that I wouldn't get mad at him, even just for this week. And I failed. I failed myself. I never stopped hurting him, I guess. :(

I want this to end.
I want to be happy again.
But why does my heart keep on stopping me?
  How do I kill this feeling?

VALENTINE'S DAY 2012 ♥

Before reading this, you might want to read my Valentine's Day 2011 blog entry.
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FEBRUARY 14

Pink roses from Daniel + dinner with him. :)

+ cookies from 2FMT boys. :")

 :">

When we all thought, Valentine's over on the 14th...

FEBRUARY 15

We were supposed to go to school at 1PM today but according to our Computer prof, she had to meet us at 12PM for us to take her quiz.

Not knowing, that was our 2F boys' way to surprise us. :")

They surprised us with their awesome video and simple presentation.

All the girls were so happy and touched by what the boys did.

In the middle of our 1-2PM class, I had a headache. It was really painful that I ended up losing my consciousness. Almost everyone in class got panicked, so they brought me to the health service. I was advised to come home.

Earlier tonight, Daniel and I had dinner. Before the dinner starts, he pulled something outside from his bag. He pulled a white pillow. He handed it to me while saying,

"Here's something for you, from your 2FMT boys."

2FMT boys are just really sweet, aren't they? :")

These 2 days made me feel really special. :">

THANK YOU SO MUCH, 2FMT! >:D<

Happy happy Valentine's Day!  ♥

CONFESSION

Everyone can make me smile. Just crack a simple joke, surely, I'll laugh.
That's how shallow my personality is.

But if you ask me if everyone can make me happy,

for sure I'll be saying no.

Not everyone can make me happy.
That's a fact.

I have to confess something.
I AM HAPPY.

And someone is the reason for this.

Who wouldn't be happy if you are blessed with someone who is

always there to listen to you, to your problems, jokes, or maybe, even to your most random thoughts?

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone who always tries to meet your expectations?
Someone who will do everything to make you happy.

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone who you can fool around with, just like the two of you are little kids?

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone who knows that you are not perfect, but always sees you like you're the right one for him?

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone whose simple joy is to see the smile on your face?

WHO WOULDN'T BE?

I feel so blessed.

I know YOU will be reading this.

And I guess I won't let this day to end without saying

THANK YOU.

Maybe, sometimes, I don't get to show you how much you mean to me.
I just hope this entry shows how grateful I am to have you in my life.

Thank you for coming into my life, and for being there for me all the time. :)

Happy Love Month! ♥

Today's the first day of the month of February.

And I just realized that there are soooo many things to look forward to. ;)

Feb 8 2012

Yna's birthday! ;)

La la la day.♥

Feb 14 2012

Valentine's Day ♥

Eunice's Sweet Sixteen ;)

Feb 22-26 2012

LOOOONG WEEKEND!

This is the weekend of my birthday.

But I'm planning to go out (maybe on the 22nd) with some friends.

The next days will be rest days, I guess.

25th and 26th will be big days for meeee. :)

Feb 25 2012

This is the dayyyyy!

This is the day I am going to celebrate the first day of my legality.

Yuuuck, so old. :S I'm turning 18. HUHUHU. :<

Feb 26 2012

THIS IS MY ACTUAL BIRTHDAY!

Yaaay! :D

Sooooo, for my birthday, I'll be having a traditional one.

It'll be just a simple party with my family and close friends.

It's making me excited cause finally I'll get to see people I haven't seen for quite a long time already.

The theme of the debut is making me excited too. ;)

Can't wait to see people dressed up as geeks (for guys)!

We've been preparing for the debut for more than a month already. I am just really glad everyone in my family is very cooperative. They're so sweet. My parents and I did the search for the venue (Our house was even one of the top choices, but we thought it would be a hassle for my friends who live in Manila to travel to Batangas just to attend my debut.). My brother and his girlfriend worked hard for the souvenirs and for the invitations. My cousin was even ready to give up her own JS Prom just to attend the debut. Good thing, the prom was moved. :-j

The preparation is really tiring. But I can say that it is fun too. :)

Just so you know...

Months before we (my parents and I) decided that I will have a debut, I was not really expecting for a traditional debut. So it was a surprise for me that they said I'll be having one.

I actually dreamt of people surprising me on my birthday. :))) (Okay, ang feeling ko lang! HAHAHA!)

But seriously, that was my dream. I wanted people to surprise me. Maybe a simple dinner and my forever dream: to light my own sky lantern and watch it fly. :))  Okay, I know, sobrang babaw noon. =))

This month will be awesome.

I can feel it.

Hope everything goes well. ;)

HAPPY LOVE MONTH EVERYONE!!! :*