Soon to be MD, I hope. :)

So many days and months have passed. So many Wednesdays that I missed writing in this blog. It all goes down for one reason...  I was too busy for school... for my FUTURE.

Third year, first semester has just ended. And I have to say this, this semester had brought me so many ups and downs. It also did teach me so many things, not just related to my course, but life lessons, as well.

I won't go too much into my emotional stuff. All I just want this entry to contain is about my DREAMS.

Even before the first semester of my third year in college starts, I've been praying to God to help me get through this semester. And I am just so happy and thankful that I did. 5 semesters down, 3 to go and I'll be graduating from my pre-med course.

Less than 2 months to go, and I'll be taking my NMAT. I've been preparing for this. I've enrolled myself into a NMAT review center, and really wishing that I'll get a high percentile.

Last night, I registered to CEM's online registration for NMAT. And at that time, all I could say is that, "This is it. I am so sure of this. I really wanna be a doctor someday. Not just because I want to follow my parents' footsteps, but basically, because this is what I really want."

People would tend to say that I have long way to goooooo... That I have to get through so many things before I become a physician; that I have what? A decade more to go to finish?

But SO WHAT?!?

If you really want something, you have to strive hard to get it.
There are no shortcuts for reaching one's goal. And this is one of my motivations. Some would say, "Ang tagal pa ha? 4 or 5 years pa? Tapos residency pa?"

But I would reply, "4 or 5 years na lang? Hindi ba mabilis na lang yun?"

I am really so sure of this now. I see myself that in 10 years or more, I am a successful physician already! :D

Start of something new :)

I remember during my Economics class in high school, our teacher told us that,

"Everything has a saturation point."

("Lahat dadating sa time na magsasawa.")

I realized that it is true; true since I get to experience it myself.

I know, I know, giving up should never be an option in any situation. I mean, if you want something, you gotta do everything to get it. But just like what I said earlier, everything has a saturation point. Everything has an end. Giving up is not always bad. I mean, what's our usual advice when someone's down, and was not able to get what he or she wants?

"Maybe it's not really for you. Maybe God has something better for you."

("Malay mo hindi yun para sayo. Malay mo meron si God na ibibigay sayo na mas maganda.")

That's like the usual thing we say, right?

For the last few days, I was able to realize that I should stop trying with this thing that bothered me for a while. There were lots of beautiful things around me that happened and I missed them because I kept on trying for something that I guess was not really for me. Thanks for today because I got to realize that there are lots of good things and good people around me. They might not be the good stuff I really wanted, but they for sure are the good ones for me.

"Inhale the good vibes, exhale the bad ones." -That's one thing I got to learn today.

Kung hindi mo kaya at sinubukan mo at nagfail ka pa, may magagawa ka ba? Kung ayaw sayo at pinilit mong makisama at wala rin nangyari, may magagawa ka ba?

None, right? I tried, but I failed. And I'm happy I got to ACCEPT it now.

So, next step?
MOVE ON.

And that's the thing I'm doing now. Moving on. Forgetting all those bad vibes. Accepting the changes. And starting anew. :)

Reason why I will forever love One Tree Hill :")

I kept thinking of what to share in my entry today, but I really could not think of anything. Until tonight, when I was lying on my bed, checking tweets in twitter, I read a quote from the series One Tree Hill, which says,

"Love means giving chances when there's no more chances left to give."

I realized that the quote is indeed true. When you love someone, you never count what he has given you. You never count the mistakes he has done to you. You just give him a chance for him to correct his mistakes. That is because you both know that he would not mess up again; that he believes in himself  that he could do better; that he could make you a lot happier. 

One Tree Hill just ended. :(

And, it's quite sad because this is the first series I've really loved watching, and I've been watching it for nearly a decade. It is just really sad that it is over now since OTH became one of my guides in life. It taught me a lot of life lessons. :)

Started this summer right :")

MARCH 23

-Last day of A.Y. 2011-2012

-Watched Hunger Games at G4 with the GCs :")

-Tambay at Ayala Triangle (specifically, at Golden Spoon) with Daniel, Mae and Den. :>

-Went home riding a bus, then dinner at Wok with Me, still with Daniel, Mae and Den. :)

-Watched the Baccalaureate Mass at UST still with the 3.

-Rushed to UST Hospital to come with Kim and Daniel. Kim's allergies. :(

MARCH 24

-Cello's and Bonchon with Daniel :)

-Moonleaf then Mcdo with Daniel :>

-Dinner at Greenbelt with ELLE :">

>Chili's then Bollywood :)

 

ELLE minus Jia :(

March 25 

-Bisyo trip with my PIB, Carmina Reyes! >:D<

>visited my Labs, Kimoi :)

>Cakeland!!!

l to r: myself, Yna, Kim
Inside the tricycle =)))

March 26

-Deliberation

>ONE SUMMER WISH DOWN: Passed all my subjects this sem! :")

>Was with Kath, Joyce, Neo, Mae, Maiza, Karla, Simon and Clarence. :>

-Finally home!!! :D

March 27

-At this day, two years ago, I graduated from HS. :)

-Just a normal day. Hang out with zee parents, went to MCWB. :>

>One summer plan is going to push through:

Mom already talked to the medical technologists at MCWB that I will be observing at the lab this summer :")

Oh yeah! \m/

-Late dinner at Malabanan's :)

March 28

-Eunice's HS Graduation!!!

Family :">
Minus Mommy and Lolo. :)

l to r: my cousin Eunice, my niece Aira, myself :)

Proud Ate here :")

My summer break is just starting.

In 6 days, I have made so many memories already.

Can't wait for April!

Things to look forward to:

-Barangay Fiesta!

-Yna's debut :>

Yaaaay! 

Hoping for this summer to be an awesome and a productive one! :")

SUMMER PLANS ☼

Early today in MTEDUC class report, my plans for this summer was finally organized. One of the questions in the bonus items in our quiz was,

"How do you plan to spend your summer?"

After taking the test, I wrote everything I wrote on the test in my planner.

And this is what is written on one of the last pages of my planner (See picture below):

I just really wish to accomplish all these things. I'll be so happy if I get to do all these. :>

If ever I change any plans, or maybe add anything in plans, I'll surely update you guys through this blog! :)

(These plans will only push through if I pass all my subjects this semester. I just hope I will. :))

Photo blog: My 18th

This entry is a photo blog entry. 

I'm letting you see how great that night was through the pictures below. :>

Few minutes before the debut! :)

Food :P~

The cake and giveaways :)

Before the program started. :>

Daddy handling me the bouquet :">

Ninang Mercy leading the opening prayer. :)

With the GCs. :)
(minus Kim, Daniel and Clarence)

With my family! <3

Other College friends! :D

Grade school friends! <3

Family friends and relatives :)

High school friends! :>

My cousins and my brother! :)

ELLE (minus Mariel & Jia)

MAD <3

The hosts for that night! Thanks to you 3! :*

First dance: BROTHER <3

Last dance: DADDY <3

My 18 Roses! :">

My 18 Candles :">

My 18 Treasures! :">

Boz and Lim's dance showdown. HAHAHA!

With the Beauty and the Geek of the night!

Blowing of the candles! :>

Daddy's and Mommy's speech!
           Wee, sweet wishes from you guys! > :*<

My family <3

Daddy slicing the cake! :>

We both know that I will always be your "bunso",
your "dear little one" and your "little angel"!
I love you so much Daddy! :*

Tik Tok, On the Clock, the Party won't stop!
The clock just reached 12!
Hello Feb 26, hello 18-year old me!
(After party at Boni High with GCs! <3)

Thank you so much to everyone who greeted me and to everyone who was present to one of the most important nights of my life! 

I love you all so much! You guys don't know how each and every one of you made me happy! :">

Words are not enough to show how grateful I am to have you all in my life! :)

Iloveyouall. :*

FEB 29: LEAP DAY!

I was gonna blog about my debut for this entry, but I realized that the pictures are not complete yet. Some are still with the photographers.
Sooooo, I guess I'll be blogging about my debut on the weekends, at my other blog site.

Anyway, it's leap day today. To tell you the truth, being depressed last 11/11/11 (because nothing really special happened), made me expect more for this day.

Leap day happens only once in four years, and one thing to do today is to make it extra special. For sure, after four years, one gets to look back and feel what happens today.

Today, I planned to let one of  my wish lanterns fly. But unfortunately, I was not able to do it.

To make things shorter, I didn't do anything that will make this day special.

I was depressed and disappointed, cause once again, I was not able to make a unique and important day that has to be memorable, an unforgettable one.

Later on, I realized that I should just let it pass.
Just like what I did last 11/11/11.
I just thought of everything I was going to wish in my wish lanterns.

I have a number of wishes, and just last night, one of them came true.
I guess having one of my wishes come true is something I have to be thankful about.
It was supposed to be something I could remember in the next four years.
It was a good memory.
A memory that brought me the "abot hanggang tenga na ngiti"

Another thing that I did last night was writing my predictions.
It was just short, and I think I want it to share to everyone who is reading my blog.

So, here are my predictions:

In four years...

1. I'll be on my second year in Medicine.
(I can't predict what school I'll be going to, but I know to myself, I'm going to pursue this degree.)

2. The people below, will still be the people who I love the most.

(Photos from my debut last February 25 2012)

And these are the things I did today.
It was a very mixed emotions but I am happy I get to smile even before this day ends.

PS. 

On March 2 (Friday) is Kuya Donn's 10th Death Anniversary!
I miss you so much, Kuya! I just really wish you were here. :(

I can't believe you've been away for 10 years.

It's kind of unfair thinking that I was able to spend only 9 years with you, and that I've been longing for you for 10 years already. :((

I MISS YOU, AND YOU ALWAYS HAVE A SPOT IN MY HEART.

I love you. :*

How do you kill a feeling?

A friend of mine tweeted last night the question, "How do you kill a feeling?"...and it actually made me wonder if it is even possible to kill your feelings.
 I was studying for my Pharmaco quiz last night when I got hurt by someone's words. I really couldn't focus reviewing, cause all I could think about were his words. I wanted to focus on Pharmaco. I didn't want to feel what I was feeling. If there was a way to not feel the pain that his words have caused me, I'll do everything to not feel that pain. I don't want that feeling. It was like I was slowly getting killed. At that moment, I just want to be numb.

Today, I passed by the church. I really wanted to take the pain away from my heart. I even asked for His guidance. I wanted everything to be okay. That was what was on my mind.

I knew to myself I am ready to forgive that person. I knew I wanted to be happy again. But I guess, something was stopping me. The pain that I felt was stopping me to bring everything back to normal.  I continue pushing him away.

People could think that what he said to me about giving up was just shallow for me to get mad at him like this. But I can't take one thing away from my mind: What he did hurt me cause he can't deny the fact that once in his life, he felt giving up on me.

That person is too important to me. I can't afford to lose that person. I even told myself that I wouldn't get mad at him, even just for this week. And I failed. I failed myself. I never stopped hurting him, I guess. :(

I want this to end.
I want to be happy again.
But why does my heart keep on stopping me?
  How do I kill this feeling?

VALENTINE'S DAY 2012 ♥

Before reading this, you might want to read my Valentine's Day 2011 blog entry.
PLEASE CLICK THIS.

FEBRUARY 14

Pink roses from Daniel + dinner with him. :)

+ cookies from 2FMT boys. :")

 :">

When we all thought, Valentine's over on the 14th...

FEBRUARY 15

We were supposed to go to school at 1PM today but according to our Computer prof, she had to meet us at 12PM for us to take her quiz.

Not knowing, that was our 2F boys' way to surprise us. :")

They surprised us with their awesome video and simple presentation.

All the girls were so happy and touched by what the boys did.

In the middle of our 1-2PM class, I had a headache. It was really painful that I ended up losing my consciousness. Almost everyone in class got panicked, so they brought me to the health service. I was advised to come home.

Earlier tonight, Daniel and I had dinner. Before the dinner starts, he pulled something outside from his bag. He pulled a white pillow. He handed it to me while saying,

"Here's something for you, from your 2FMT boys."

2FMT boys are just really sweet, aren't they? :")

These 2 days made me feel really special. :">

THANK YOU SO MUCH, 2FMT! >:D<

Happy happy Valentine's Day!  ♥

CONFESSION

Everyone can make me smile. Just crack a simple joke, surely, I'll laugh.
That's how shallow my personality is.

But if you ask me if everyone can make me happy,

for sure I'll be saying no.

Not everyone can make me happy.
That's a fact.

I have to confess something.
I AM HAPPY.

And someone is the reason for this.

Who wouldn't be happy if you are blessed with someone who is

always there to listen to you, to your problems, jokes, or maybe, even to your most random thoughts?

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone who always tries to meet your expectations?
Someone who will do everything to make you happy.

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone who you can fool around with, just like the two of you are little kids?

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone who knows that you are not perfect, but always sees you like you're the right one for him?

Who wouldn't be happy if you have someone whose simple joy is to see the smile on your face?

WHO WOULDN'T BE?

I feel so blessed.

I know YOU will be reading this.

And I guess I won't let this day to end without saying

THANK YOU.

Maybe, sometimes, I don't get to show you how much you mean to me.
I just hope this entry shows how grateful I am to have you in my life.

Thank you for coming into my life, and for being there for me all the time. :)

Happy Love Month! ♥

Today's the first day of the month of February.

And I just realized that there are soooo many things to look forward to. ;)

Feb 8 2012

Yna's birthday! ;)

La la la day.♥

Feb 14 2012

Valentine's Day ♥

Eunice's Sweet Sixteen ;)

Feb 22-26 2012

LOOOONG WEEKEND!

This is the weekend of my birthday.

But I'm planning to go out (maybe on the 22nd) with some friends.

The next days will be rest days, I guess.

25th and 26th will be big days for meeee. :)

Feb 25 2012

This is the dayyyyy!

This is the day I am going to celebrate the first day of my legality.

Yuuuck, so old. :S I'm turning 18. HUHUHU. :<

Feb 26 2012

THIS IS MY ACTUAL BIRTHDAY!

Yaaay! :D

Sooooo, for my birthday, I'll be having a traditional one.

It'll be just a simple party with my family and close friends.

It's making me excited cause finally I'll get to see people I haven't seen for quite a long time already.

The theme of the debut is making me excited too. ;)

Can't wait to see people dressed up as geeks (for guys)!

We've been preparing for the debut for more than a month already. I am just really glad everyone in my family is very cooperative. They're so sweet. My parents and I did the search for the venue (Our house was even one of the top choices, but we thought it would be a hassle for my friends who live in Manila to travel to Batangas just to attend my debut.). My brother and his girlfriend worked hard for the souvenirs and for the invitations. My cousin was even ready to give up her own JS Prom just to attend the debut. Good thing, the prom was moved. :-j

The preparation is really tiring. But I can say that it is fun too. :)

Just so you know...

Months before we (my parents and I) decided that I will have a debut, I was not really expecting for a traditional debut. So it was a surprise for me that they said I'll be having one.

I actually dreamt of people surprising me on my birthday. :))) (Okay, ang feeling ko lang! HAHAHA!)

But seriously, that was my dream. I wanted people to surprise me. Maybe a simple dinner and my forever dream: to light my own sky lantern and watch it fly. :))  Okay, I know, sobrang babaw noon. =))

This month will be awesome.

I can feel it.

Hope everything goes well. ;)

HAPPY LOVE MONTH EVERYONE!!! :*

25 JAN 2012

3 things for today…

1. HAPPY 20^TH BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!

He annoys me ever since we were little kids.

He has never ending list of to-do things for me all the time.

He gets mad at me when I come home late.

He even gets mad at me even though I’m not doing anything.

But I know, those are his own ways of being a brother to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUYA ARDIN! J

2. St. Paul’s Day!

This is who I am:

A proud Thomasian.

An Assumptionist by heart.

But that will never change the fact that the person I am right now is shaped by the Paulinian family.

Forever Paulinian. <3

HAPPY FEAST DAY, FELLOW PAULINIANS!

3. Velada Tomasina

As I said earlier, aside from being a Paulinian, I am a Thomasian too.

A proud one.

WHY? Well, why not?!

The pictures below will tell you.

In these pictures, we go back to the time when UST has just started.

That was 401 years ago...

Don’t we all just look good?

Just like Maria Clara and Crisostomo Ibarra. Hahaha! <3

Today was really a long day.

But it was really great. ;)