Do you know the feeling when someone has hurt your feelings, and you don't know how to tell them that you're hurt, and all you can do is say "No" when they ask you if you're mad at them?
I do this every time, and I hate it.
That person is too important in my life for me to make a big deal of what he has done.
Sobrang babaw lang, and wala pang kwenta minsan yung reason para magtampo ako.
I hate myself.
Cause just what I said earlier, I don't want to make a big deal out of it.
But gaaad. My actions.
I would barely mind that person. -____-
I can't help myself.
Maybe because I was hurt.
Maybe because I had too much expectation. Yun din mali ko eh.
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Sometimes, I wish I can say what I really want to say.
I know SOMETIMES I say
"Bahala na."
"Ikaw/kayo bahala. Kung ano gusto mo/niyo."
"Kahit ano na lang."
"Hindi na lang. Okay lang naman ako."
I don't know why I say those things when ALL THE TIME, I would want to say,
"No, I want you to stay."
I guess I just don't want to be a burden to that person.
Nakakainis lang naman kasi yung feeling na tatanungin ka kung gusto mo pa siya/sila magstay na kasama mo. Kasi siyempre gusto mo pa talaga siya/sila magstay, pero masasabi mo na lang na, "Kayo bahala." kasi nakakahiya naman baka gusto na pala talaga niya/nila umalis. Pabigat ka pa, diba?
Or maybe, nageexpect rin ako na siya/sila na yung magiinsist na magstay. Siguro ganun nga.
And kaya rin siguro ako nasasaktan kasi, nagexpect ako and di naman nangyari.
I know this entry is really nonsense. Sobrang wala talaga. -____-
So I guess, it's my time to say good bye. I'll try to post a better one next week! :)
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